Why am I being tortured?

Okay tortured isn't the right word. Tortured is when they tell your your baby is dead and a week later it's still inside. But this is close.

I FEEL SO F*CKING PREGNANT I WANT TO SCREAM!!! I keep telling myself it's the progesterone, but this cycle has symptoms infinitely more severe than the last two. I told my husband tonight, I'd bet $5 that a pregnancy test right now would be positive . . .

Oh yeah, except it's negative.

This is horrible enough that, assuming I'm not pregnant, I may cycle next month without the progesterone and start it only if I get pregnant. My doctor is fine with either use of progesterone, but there may be some benefit to taking it during the 2 week wait and "it can't hurt." Factoring out sanity of course. We'll see, I need to do more research.

3 more days til AF.