Hi, and welcome. This blog has changed a bit recently. My husband and I fought through 4 consecutive losses to get our second healthy child (born in December 2012) . . . and while we had not shut the door on the idea of another pregnancy, we certainly were leaning in that direction. On August 8, 2014, we found out we are pregnant for the 7th time. A total surprise. So the neurotic journey continues . . . third child or fifth loss . . . I'm scared and confused and just a teensy bit excited . . .

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Crap on a cracker, I'm at a crossroads . . .

There are lines that are darker than yesterday's. Darker meaning just ever so slightly pink now instead of just not being completely white. They are still faint enough that I would not venture to call them "positive." They are still faint enough that most people would think I was insane. But I'm fairly convinced this is no longer in my head.

So there are 2 directions to go from here.

1) STOP THE TESTING MADNESS! Let this shake out however it is going to shake out on it's own. In 2 days the line will either be much darker or it won't. Testing every 3 hours out of the next 48 isn't going to help calm my nerves.

2) Keep up with the insanity to prove whether or not this is really another chemical pregnancy or not. Which will be nothing more than another stupid piece of this ridiculous equation, but another doctor may find it relevant.

At this point, I really don't think this is our cycle and I really don't feel pregnant. Nor do I expect another pregnancy to work. So, I don't think there will be too much emotional devastation with option 2. But I also think that could make for a really long and cranky couple of days.

Either way, the next 48-72 hours will be interesting to say the least.

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