Less than 48 hours . . .

I am a nut case about Thursday.  An absolute nut case.  Not only will we find out if the baby is still alive, but this will also be the first of 2 scans to determine if our baby has any possible birth defects.  (The second one is the more typical anatomy scan performed at 20 weeks.)

I just want to close my eyes and sleep until my appointment.  Unfortunately sleep is still elusive and I'm not even sure how I'm going to get through tonight.  Two more nights.  Two more nights.  I can do this.  I have no other choice . . .