Still Sick

The first trimester is just days from being over, and I'm still constantly sick.  I know all pregnancies are different, but by 13 weeks with my son I was definitely feeling better and by 14 weeks I was feeling great.  (Because by the time we told everyone we were pregnant I was talking about how horrible my sickness had been and I was so glad I was over it.)

My days go something like this:

Wake up.  Feel kinda queasy, but mostly thirsty.  Drink a bottle of water over the course of the morning routine (getting my son up, out of the house, dropped of at school, etc.)  Am ravenously hungry by the time I do school drop off, and try to find something to eat for breakfast.  It all goes downhill from there . . .

It does not matter what I eat.  It can be peanut butter on wheat toast.  It can be ice cream.  Or anything you can think of between those extremes . . . Eating makes my sickness worse.  And usually it's not puking sick.  It's just the CONSTANT feeling of going to puke any second.  I actually wish I would get sick, because the threat of it happening at any second is just miserable.

And that's how it goes throughout the day.  Every time I eat it gets worse and worse until we make it to 7/8pm and I am literally having so much nausea that I'm gagging (almost dry heaving) over the tiniest smells.

I have tried staying ahead of the hunger, thinking that maybe my stomach is getting too empty.  Doesn't work.  I have tried eating something bland first thing in the morning before I drink my water.  That is the worst (on those days I usually do end up throwing up my water).

So today I did school drop off, and as hungry as I am, I haven't eaten.  I am sipping very slowly on a diet coke.  (I already put down 20oz of water this morning.)  And I feel okay.  Queasy.  REALLY hungry.  But I don't feel like I'm going to be sick at any second.

Obviously, living off diet coke and water is not an option.  I am pregnant and I NEED to eat when I'm hungry.  But I'm just so sick of being sick that I can't even bring myself to open a refrigerator door this morning to look at what my options are.

I will say it again for the hundredth time . . . If it means we can have a healthy baby, I will do it every day for 40 weeks.  But darn it, I'm hungry and just wish I could eat like a normal person.