Hi, and welcome. This blog has changed a bit recently. My husband and I fought through 4 consecutive losses to get our second healthy child (born in December 2012) . . . and while we had not shut the door on the idea of another pregnancy, we certainly were leaning in that direction. On August 8, 2014, we found out we are pregnant for the 7th time. A total surprise. So the neurotic journey continues . . . third child or fifth loss . . . I'm scared and confused and just a teensy bit excited . . .

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Morning Freak Out

My kid is sleeping like crap lately - so when he woke up screaming today about an hour earlier than normal, I had to rush around to get myself ready.  I couldn't find any clothes I wanted so I grabbed a pair of non-maternity jeans sitting on the dresser that I haven't even attempted to put on in weeks.  (Not because I was a afraid they wouldn't fit, but because it's been 50 billion degrees here and who wants to wear jeans when it's that hot???)

But, I'm 12 weeks pregnant.  Surely I was going to have a hard time getting them on, or at least they would be snug around the middle, right?  Nope.  Not in the least.  WTF?  In my first pregnancy I would have jumped for joy about this.  I gained weight too quickly in the first trimester with my son (carbs were the only thing that helped my sickness).  I've been keeping an eye on my weight - and I'm only up about 3 pounds for the first trimester this time around.  And while I wouldn't expect 3 pounds would make my pants completely not fit, HELLO - isn't there supposed to be a baby the size of a plum in my ever-expanding uterus?  How can my pants fit and not even be snug in the middle???

So what did I do, in my exhausted emotional state?  Sat on my bed and cried.  Because in my traumatized brain, this is clearly a very bad sign.  :(

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