5 weeks

Is it just me or does it seem like I've been pregnant forever already?  This is really the point where I kick myself in the ass for testing so early.  I've known that I've been pregnant for almost 2 weeks now - and I'm only 5 weeks pregnant today (give or take a day or two since my temperatures weren't clear this month).

I'm feeling okay.  I *think* I might be starting to feel pregnant.  But it's hard to say.  I remember last time I felt completely totally normal - which worried me.  I remember feeling much much worse with my first (and only successful) pregnancy.  I'm not feeling horrible or normal right now.  I'm taking that as a good sign.  Because God knows I need even just the tiniest pieces of anything to hold onto right now.

I'm trying to emotionally prepare myself for Thursday morning.  Realistically speaking, there will either be bad news or more news that requires us to wait and see.  There will either be no sac (chemical pregnancy) or a sac outside of the uterus (ectopic pregnancy) or an intra-uterine sac.  But there will be no baby at this stage.  So the best we can hope for is a sac in the right place and another week (or maybe even more) of waiting to see if the baby will develop and if it's heart will start beating.  

There will be more bloodwork on Thursday as well.  And it obviously won't tell us what the outcome of this pregnancy will be either, but it will be another piece to this complex puzzle of figuring out how things are starting out for us.