My mind races a million miles an hour and I can not articulate any of the thoughts in isolation. But it goes something like this...
Iamnotfeelingenoughsymptoms.Chilloutfreakyouarenoteven5weekspregnant.Thereisnowaythispregnancywillwork.Thereisnowayourluckcanbebadenoughtoloseanotherone.Iwanttopeeonanothertesttoseehowdarkthelineis.Nothatscrazy.WhatiftheyseenothingonThursday.IshouldpreparemyselfforseeingnothingonThurday.OMGThursdayisamillionhoursaway.IfthisisanothermiscarriageIcantdothisagain.Iamcrazy.Andneurotic.AndthereisnowayIwillevergetanotherlivingchild.IguessIdontdeserveanotherlivingchild.Ifeellikecrying.GreatnowImcrying.Pullyourselftogetherandstopcrying.
:repeat indefinitely:
And it never ends. Never.
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