10 Weeks

Wow, double digits on the weekly counter feels good. Almost surreal . . .

Baby should be the size of a prune (about 3 centimeters long). If my doctor are going to keep the 1/24 due date then I will be moving these weekly updates to Thursday, just to be consistent with a 40 week pregnancy actually ending on 1/24. But for now, at least until the next ultrasound and appointment I'll keep them where they have been. 2 days doesn't make that big of a difference . . .

The 4 days that have passed since the ultrasound have been nice.  I haven't spent my time obsessing over whether or not the baby is still alive.  Which honestly, is the first time I can say that in this entire pregnancy.  To not have obsessive dead baby thoughts in an entire 4 day period is a HUGE mental milestone.

Of course, I'm not exactly convinced we are bringing this baby home yet either.  It's a long mental leap to imagine that 9 week embryo we saw Thursday being a healthy baby that we will bring home in 7 months.  So instead of obsessing about miscarrying OR obsessing about finding stuff to decorate a new nursery, I'm just putting one foot in front of the other and trying not to think much about pregnancy at all.  Some days that's easier than others.  I still feel fairly sick most of the time, and some days are much worse than others.  Although, my severe aversions do seem to be going away - I actually ate, and enjoyed, salad twice this weekend.  Bizarre insomnia issues are still kicking my butt.  I can struggle all day to keep my eyes open and have significant trouble going to sleep at night.  And even more trouble going back to sleep after I get up to pee in the middle of the night - which is typically happening once, but twice isn't unheard of either.

So all of that was a long winded way of saying that I *think* I feel pretty normal right now.  At least as normal as it's going to get.

NT scan is scheduled for July 12th.  I'm sure as that gets closer I will freak out more than once.  But for now, I'm trying to enjoy the little bit of sanity the ultrasound last week gave me.  :)