Just trying to get through . . .

I'm not sure if it's anxiety about tomorrow or if it's pregnancy hormones in overdrive, but I have been really sick in the last 24 hours. And for the first time in this pregnancy that has included a raging (almost unbearable) headache. I went to bed relatively early last night hoping that would cure it, but sure enough it's still here this morning. I try to avoid any medicine in pregnancy, but I just couldn't go without the Tylenol this morning. Of course, not being able to remember the allowed dosage for pregnancy I pulled out my old folder from my practice, and the first thing I saw was the ultrasound pictures from the last pregnancy. Dagger to the heart.

At first the sickness was giving me a lot of comfort. Now I'm just convinced it's a cruel joke. Lots of women have 1st trimester sickness and still miscarry. Why should I be any different? I don't exactly have a good track record for staying pregnant lately.

But enough of my pity party. I'm going to go spend my day trying to get some real work done, while simultaneously hanging my head over a trash can. And I'll probably cry a couple times too. I just hope the Tylenol kicks in soon. I need whatever relief I can get today.